Friday, 7 June 2013

10 Shits

"We are all misfits living in a  world on fire." -People Like Us by Kelly Clarkson

Hey guys..

I know I haven't been writing for a very long time and I'm not gonna apologise for that because nobody reads my crap. My life has been a mess and I can't apologise for that.


I'm just gonna clear up some stuff. I do that all the time so you know.

First, I've updated my playlist according to what I've been listening to (although not in any order).

Second, that guy I liked? Beautiful Stranger? Remember him? Yeah, I haven't seen him in a long time. He was a jerk anyways so whatever.


Third, I could've done better for my exams but   I didn't. I got A2 for Math though. 

Fourth, I bought a hat. I don't know why. I just thought I'd try something new.

Test

That's not my hat, just the same design.

Fifth, it's the holidays for me. The June holidays. A whole month. It's not a holiday though. I still have a whole lot of homework and projects to do. 

Sixth, I got my own Personal Learning Device for school and I'm using it now..

Seventh, I got another stuffed Panda called M.J.

Eighth, I'm reading a new story on Wattpad, You Make Me So Hot. 

Ninth, Ed Sheeran, Fall Out Boy..AAAHH


Tenth, remember last post I said I was gonna update Chapter 4? I didn't until today.

There you go..


I'm off..to try and write my fourth chapter.

Hint: It has people in it..


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Wednesday, 24 April 2013

Fall Out Boy and a Beautiful Stranger

WARNING: This post contains a lot of pictures of a certain someone and it will be a cute overload . So, if you faint, die or whatever, it is not me to blame.

Hello!

"One night yeah, and one more time. Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories." -Thnks Fr Th Mmrs by Fall Out Boy

Don't worry guys, just because I used that line up there as the intro does not mean that I am leaving this blog.

I'm just gonna write a short post because I realised that I haven't been writing for wait what's that? A month! Okay, more than a month. But you know. A lot went on during the one month. So I'm gonna tell you now.

Also, I'm planning on finishing this post and then move on to my fourth chapter of my book and then my homework. All before 11. So bear with me. And how can I forget about eating too, right?!

Lately, just you know, recently, I've been listening to a lot of Fall Out Boy. Seriously, have you taken a listen to their fifth album, Save Rock And Roll. Holy crappy momma. It is perfection. I listen to it before I go to bed, on the way to school, during school, after school, while I blog, while I write-everywhere and everytime.

I dunno, I think they really made an awesome comeback. I swear, this time, I'm not a fan cause they are good-looking but because the music they make is really good. And Patrick, the lead vocalist of the band, has such an awesome voice. And I'm so proud of him cause he has lost a lot of weight and also he has changed. I can see from the music videos. But yeahh. I shall show you how he looks now. He is so cuteeee. It'll literally be a cute overload so brace yourselves. I swear he's grown hotter.
















shewillbelubed: HE IS LITERALLY THE HUMAN FORM OF A CORGI



Also, how can I forget about the band.










MTV interview

You can understand me right? 

They are just...

Anyways, they're coming to Singapore on the 6th of August and I just hope to whoever cares that I get to go to their concert. And to those who know my birthday, I just wish I get their album. 

Also, another thing is that for the past few weeks, a guy has been filling my thoughts. I won't go into detail. But..

So on a Wednesday, the third, of this month, I went to 7eleven. My school is near a train station so I can just walk there. And 7eleven is there. So I was there to give my friend souvenirs that I bought when I went to Port Dickson. And then I met this guy...he was or he looked hot but whatever. I thought it was just like a one time thing. Like I'd never see him again. So I texted my friend from my school that I met a hot guy. And yada yada yada... Then after all that, I walked back to school again, it's just like a 3 minute walk. So, when I reached the entrance of the school that is, I met him again. But this time we weren't so close...like about 10-20 metres away. And I knew it was him because I recognised his orange shirt. And I didn't have very bad eyesight. But yeah, of course I was shocked because I didn't think I'd see him again but I did. And anyways, there was this bush that was blocking our view..and he actually moved just to take  a second look. And in my mind I was like, be cool, be cool, be cool.  And then I walked to my friends who were at the canteen. And I told them and we were just fangirling. Turns out, he takes Higher Mother Tongue at my school. And a whole lot of other students from different schools. And then..a lot of stuff happened on that day. And on Friday, cause HMT students usually come on Wed and Fri, he came. And after he finished, we practically ended our classes on the same time, so me and my friends and my seniors (we are kinda close), were walking to the train station and he and his best friend were trailing behind us.

Within that time, I found out, from the seniors, and not cause I asked, his name is Firdaus, he is 14 and I found out where he lives and where he goes to school. And I'm like wow...

But anyways...a lot happened since that day till today. But I'm not gonna tell cause of time constraint and also cause I'm just really lazy. He isn't as special to me as three weeks ago, though.

I used to be like this:


But now I'm like this:

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If you wanna know what happened, you can read chapter four of my story, Love the Hate, on wattpad. Yep..if you still have any queries about this..you know what to do. Or you can ask me on wattpad itself.

Yeah..I shall start writing chapter 4 now. Follow me on my social media links!




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Monday, 18 March 2013

Fitting In

"Everywhere I go, I see my name in bright lights. If I keep it up, I know that I can fly." -Bright Lights (Fly) by Alex Goot

What's up guys? How're you doing?


I just wanna take an hour or so to stress on this topic, okay? So just let me.

This is something that I've been going through for the past few months. You know, starting in a new school, new environment.

Starting in a new school is hard for me, with the new people, new subjects, new place. The hardest thing was making friends. 

I realise that I struggle with human interaction. And, it made a big impact on me.


Not trying to self-praise but I'm just saying this to bring me to my next point. Back in my senior year at primary school, my last year, I was sort of a popular kid. I had a group of friends who I've known half my life, who I'm really, really close to.

But then, when I got to this school, none of from my clique was in the same school. I had nobody. I was lost.

We then had class interaction. Let's just say, I went home crying.

Everyone was in their own little cliques already, and me? I was single.


I did try making friends though. I have like a little group and I don't even know if I belong though. I was always the third party.

There are three reputations in every class. we have the quiet ones, the normal ones and then we have the noisy ones.

Under quiet, we have the quiet, lonely, nerdy, studious, unnoticeable ones

Under normal, of course we have the mediocre people.

Under noisy, we have the popular, the noisy, the rowdy, the life-of-the-party type of people.

And if you're asking where I stand?


I could be considered quiet and also I happen to be kinda close to the popular people (or so I think).

But even all that, I really am alone. No one understands me. At times I just feel like breaking down and hide from the world but then I know that's not how life works.

I'm just waiting for something to happen.

Which brings me to the main topic.

The first thing I did was try to fit in with the noisy ones. Terrible idea.

They aren't my type of people. Just not me. I just put on a fake smile. And go on. It's hard not to be myself. It really is.

So I stray away and follow the normal ones. I still didn't get to be myself. I was accepted yes, but I didn't get to be myself.

Gosh, this is harder to explain than I expected.

I just couldn't be the girl that I am with my primary school friends.

But what I'm trying to say is, don't try to fit in. Because, you'll find that you're not accepted. The worst part is that, you've gone through all the pain to not be yourself and yet, you're still not accepted.

Faking yourself, is almost as close to self deprivation, it kills you inside out.

Also, what's the point of being accepted but you can't be yourself?

Up to this day, I still haven't got a friend like ones from my old school. Everyday, I say, "Today is just a day I need to get by."

As much of a loner I am, I'm not a wallflower though.


I could break any moment, but something inside me tells me not to.


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