Wednesday, 16 April 2014

Start Of Something New

"Another day, another life passes by just like mine. It's not complicated."- Autumn Leaves by Ed Sheeran


Hey beautiful people

I think it's about time we catch up on each other, shan't we?

1. I have new-found obsession with Marvel's Avengers and Norse Mythology. Mostly of Loki though. I don't know since when this started. Probably since Thor The Dark World. When was that? 7 months ago. My notebook is filled with Marvel weaponry. Like the Chitauri Scepter, Captain America's shield, Mjolnir, Crimson Gem of Cyttorak. My whole class knows of this and my group of friends joke about it. I think one of the reasons that I love Loki, mostly, is because of Tom Hiddleston. I mean come on. He is the perfect man. Who wouldn't love him? Can I just share some gifs and pics, if you don't mind me?












2. I have a group of friends that I finally belong to in my school. I love them, they make my days in school less dreadful. There's not a dull moment. I sit beside one of them in class so that's fun. We call ourselves "Fuzzy Sisters" because of our bushy hair. We have like a love-hate friendship because sometimes in class we'd have like small arguments and then we'd do our handshake and just laugh it off. I wish I could show pictures of us but I prefer to keep their identities hidden. 

3. If you must know or haven't know, I am in hockey. Recently, my school's B Division team won champions after 14 years. I was so proud I actually shed tears. I could explain in words but I'd rather show some visuals.







4. I've started working out. My motivation is just basically 
  • I want to look good in my clothes
  • I want to run 3km and not be fazed.
  • I want to not have a freaking muffin top when I wear my Raya clothes
  • I want to look good. (Basically)
5. I've been busy with shit. Right now, actually I've got a few homework piled up but I felt like writing instead. 

6. C Division tournament is starting in July and the only training we've left is in June. Can you imagine the pressure and the time we've left to train to claim at least the fourth placing? I know, I've been working hard, trying to get my fitness together and all. 

7. I've been trying to do my homework on time. Keyword: "try" And so far, since the accident (that you shouldn't know about), it's been going great. 


8. My mid-years are coming up in May. Hooray. Yay education. Birthday month too. 


9. I've been reading a lot of Loki and Tom fanfic. Just yeah. Also Sebastian Stan.. am I right or am I right? 

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Side note: I just love a man in a suit and tie. Just stop. Probably one of the reasons I love Tom. It's cause of his gentleman style. Woot!


 10. Captain America: The Winter Soldier came out and I still have yet to watch it. Motherfuuu.. There's so many spoilers from marvel fan acc I follow on twitter. 

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I guess that's all for you people. I can't think of anything else. I love you all people. I'll link my social media below.



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Tuesday, 4 February 2014

Ruined Plans

"We're only young and naive still" -Young Blood by The Naked Famous

Hey beautiful people

It's been a while since I've written.

Today I wanna tell you guys about what will happen to your new year's resolution if one incident left a dent in your perfect progress.

My new year's resolution was to not skip school so much. Let's just say, last year, I hadn't had much of a great school year. I was a loner and my social life pretty much sucked. I used to skip school a day every other week. And it brought attention to teachers and don't worry, all that's passed. 

I thought, with a new year, it would be a new me. Of course that wasn't my only resolution. I had other things planned for the year too. But that besides the point. The point is today, I did something that ruined the progress of my resolution. I skipped school.

Now, don't fret. I had a reason. I didn't get to sleep last night due to the stupid mosquitoes that left bumps on legs, hands and face. It's not a nice situation, especially when you're trying to get some sleep at night and you have to scratch your legs. Then it just had to be time for school. Of course I was dead tired. What do you expect? I tried to get a short nap on my parent's bed to get just a little sleep. Didn't work. So I told my parents and all my mum had to say is "back to her old self, never going to change." In Malay of course. 

In the end, I wasn't going to care what she said and climbed back on my bed to get my well-needed rest. 

6.50PM. This is when things switched up, a lot. We were supposed to have this short prayer to sort of thank Allah for my 3rd sister's passing of her driving test and my 1st sister's new job which starts tomorrow, and to sort of pray that my BIL's health gets better and that my 2nd sister gets a soulmate whatever thing...and then my dad adds that we pray for me to change my attitude about school and that I would not skip. This was when I snapped. 

Let me tell you something. When you wanna joke, you DON't joke about someone's sensitive issue.
1. It is just one day, and I had a valid fucking reason.
2. I am trying to change, it just so happens that the day that the fucking mosquitoes had to come and give me a scratching fit was a school night.
3. While everyone's reason was nice as to why we have to pray to Allah, mine had to seem like I was disappointing the family. 

How do you think that made me feel now?

Sure it may seem like I'm over reacting but try to put yourself in my shoes. Let's say someone were to use your insecurities as a joke, tell me, would you like it? Now I'm not saying that I'm mad at my dad. No, I'm not mad at anyone. Definitely not. I don't get mad easily. It's just the fact that I felt like a fucking failure is what's getting to me. And then stupid me had to have a tweeting fit on twitter about the whole issue and the whole world can see about my issue and how I'm not thankful and shit.

The only questions in my head is am I really a failure? A disappointment? Does my past really determine whether or not I can change who I am? If people want me to change, then why do they keep reminding me of my past mistakes? Am I just overreacting or am I ungrateful? What do I do now that one day, one incident has already had me in a crying fit? Do I go on? Go on to prove all those people wrong about what I really am? Or just quit? 

I certainly won't quit. Pft. It's only February.
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Friday, 22 November 2013

United States Of Hazirin

"I'd trade all my tomorrow's for just one yesterday" -Just One Yesterday by Fall Out Boy feat. Foxes

Hey beautiful people

I just updated the blog. I did, like always, update my playlist. It's kinda like what I've been listening to recently in order of my iTunes. But anyways, I just wanted to write. I've decided that this blog was just going to be a place where I want to express my thoughts (besides twitter) instead of being forced to write so I won't apologise if I don't write in a long time or any period of time for that matter.

My room is currently under redecorating. I share a quite big room with my sister and we both have always wanted a tumblr room. Like we are starting slow by hanging lanterns on my bed frame. If you're wondering how that is, my bed is a bunk bed so my bed is above hers and her bed is just a single size bed. Just picture it okay..And then I made us the melted rainbow crayon thing with our names. And now we are in the process of painting our room the colours we wanted. Next year (around March), we're going to get a sofa bed which is like a queen size bed but it can double as a sofa. I think it's kinda cool. Opposite the sofa, like the wall, we're going to put up a wall sticker of the map of the world. And on the wall that the sofa is gonna be at, we are going to put like Instagram photos and line them up nicely. I can show you an example.


Yes, that's Jack Harries' uni room.

And we will get like small pillows or bean bags, I don't know. But I hope we can be done by the festive month next year which should be in..July! I just checked the date, that's like very soon.. 

Okay, I just realised this like while watching FOB. I was cleaning out my room the other time and I realised that I accidentally threw away my holiday homework. Brilliant. I mean it's no problem, I can always ask my friends to photocopy it but yeah. I'm so dumb. It's times like this where I just think:


What's new is that Catching Fire came out yesterday. Just to ease the confusion, where I am, it's already the 22nd of November, okay. I watched it yesterday like my cousin texted me and we just watched it. And like we're both big fans of THG so yeah.. I ain't gonna say anythang.. 


I've just been thinking while watching FOB (again) that I have sort of like multiple personalities. I can give you a list of different me's:
1. Very classy, wears a lot of dresses and nice shoes, listens to pop me
2. Very dark, wears a lot of black, listens to alternative music me
3. Very boy-ish skater girl, wears sneakers me

I have more but those 3 are the main ones. Weird, this guy right? Psht.


Also, if any of you follow up with danisnotonfire, you should know what a cringe attack is. 


Yeahhh, I have that a lot. 

It may not seem so extreme but when you're a person who's done absolutely nothing in life, it's fucking terrifying, okay. But anyways, speaking of life related matters, I have those moments where I wish I could travel back in time, back to when I was still a kid and have nice hair and hadn't put on much weight 



and just re-do my life. But then, I watch Little Mix and they're all like young adults and they're so pretty and they can dress so nicely and then I just want to fast forward my life until I'm 18 or 20 or 16. Why 16? Because Cole from IM5 is 17 and it is a good age for Niall too.Maybe. Just sayin'.


It's almost 4 (in the afternoon, may I add) now and I still have not showered. Yes, I'm a slob like that.

Anyways, I should go. Goodbye peasants. (I'm JK)


I'm just gonna end with two GIFs



Okay, maybe one more.


I'm done- I swear I'm done.


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